Being Conditioned

I ws very intrigued from our class discussion on Thursday and kept thinking about loss and mourning all the way home.  Someone brought up the point about being able to self-destruct and how Helva was conditioned not to but now she is not being conditioned.  Because she is not being conditioned anymore those thoughts, while still deeply embedded, may begin to lose their power and eventually, many hundreds of years later, she will just be done living.  Another student (or maybe the same one, it all gets jumbled together) mentioned the lack of physical sensation.  At first my thought was that you can't miss something you didn't know, such as how Helva can't move around like brawns.  But as I thought about it more I began to realize that Helva was rasied with other people like her so that was all she knew until she went to the ship.  She knew that others could wak and touch and do things she couldn't she didn't really experience it on a normal basis.  Again, I think she was conditioned not to want those things but she is not being conditioned anymore.  Perhaps she will start to see the avdvantages that brawns and others have.  After watching people walk and jump and hug and touch, will she start wanting that too?  Sure, it's nice to hurtle through space and fly at amazing speeds but the people she takes are also doing that, just experiencing it differently.  Perhaps she will begin to wonder what it is like to be a fully functional person.  Without her conditioning will she soon start to long for touch and affection in ways that she can't have?  Will she go mad from wanting those things?  This is becoming an very interesting book.